True Love is Really Hard to Find........

I often say to myself that i am going to start looking for love again or will i get a "True Love" again ? But every time same thing happens when i search it without giving it a chance to find me. "True Love" is indeed very hard to find in life, but what i feel is that is because it is not meant to be found. I think i don't have the power to control it when this powerful force of true love came into my life. I feel love is not that kind of emotion. It's wild, exciting, uncontrollable, irresistible, unmanageable, dense, free, frantic, freaking awesome, indocile, indomitable, insuppressible, intractable, irrepressible, lawless, like a loose cannon, mad, obstinate, recalcitrant, strong, savage, uncontainable, undisciplinable, undisciplined, ungovernable, unmanageable, unrestrainable, unruly, violent........ But it wants to find me! That's what make it unique and in form and oh so challenging.

Most of the times when i look for something i never find it. But, when i am NOT looking for it...it seems to be staring at me right there in my face. That is how the cycle of my life works for some odd reasons. Mostly people find love when they are not looking for it or not trying to get it. In most of the movies and love stories, people talk about how they were going about routines in life or business when all of a sudden they happened to meet something whom they ended up being 'the one'. The never went out looking or searching, it just happened by change. I don't feel the same way because it never happened with me.

Again, this True Love can be a powerful force. I strongly feel that it has a mind of its own. Something I believe to be very potent. It really has the power to bring people together in most unlikely situations, but can also tear them apart if jealousy or obsession creeps in. It could bring out the worst and the best in us all, or cause us to do crazy things we didn't image ourselves doing. I seriously don't wanna scare anyone buy I'm sure some of us may have a story or two that we could always sit around and share.

True love had found me once. I met this girl years back, she was so sweet. She would do anything and everything to make me happy, but i was not ready for her. She wanted to build a life long relationship. This girl was so loving and caring and was everything a man could dream of! She seemed to have so much patience with me and how stubborn I was at times that it completely blew me away. I was honestly so stupid at that time. I thought to myself now "How could she put up with me, and manage to stick by my side?" "No matter what i say of do, she never gets mad or argue one bit." Then one day she told me that she really love me a lot. She wanted to marry me, and assumed I felt the same way. During that time something very tragic happened with me and i lost all my confidence and was out of my mind. So i think it was too early for me to accept all this. I was not really ready for all this. All i could say was that i really, really cared for her, but i was not able to commit. Yes, i truly loved her but not "in love." And one day i quit. The worst ever thing i could do to myself was this. I could tell that she was hurt from the tears in her eyes. All i could say was this girl is in love for real. I still feel bad, feel like a criminal, cursed for breaking her heart, but i still don't know was it was the right thing to do or was it not ? because if i had lied saying i felt the same, it would only be pretending which was not fair to her or her heart. But maybe if i would have shared everything with her at that moment and have discussed with her what i was going through might be today my days would have been something else as they are off now. I still sit sometimes all alone and feel and think "Kaash woh mere sath hoti". But no she is gone.  She must have been with me in my life. So, because of my one fault and stupidity i lost my "True Love" and never found it again in my life. Compromising at every step is now a part of my life.

Overall, what i feel is that true love can come when you least expect it. You don't have to go looking for it because it will find you at the right time and at the right place. That is God's plan. Sometimes, it's better to let it find you because if you try to hard, you may find yourself in a fucked up situation. When you become anxious and impatient you end up selling yourself short. Everyone has there own time for love. Don't compare yourself to your friends or your buddies. Take your time and do thing right is what i feel. Go about your life and live it the best way you can. You'll attrach love when you simply do what you need to do and stay focused. But when it does find you, and it will, Smile Brightly inside saying to yourself....."What took you so long, I've been expecting you!".......Much love and remember to keep your faith in your True Love and always "Keep it trustful, erotic, playful, lustful, sexful and SEXIIIIIIII!!!!!"

I Am Yours

Do you want to close your eyes ?
and welcome every new sensation ?
Do you want me to regain
all your strength,to let you dive
in this purely beautiful game...
I am in you and you like every move
I give to serve you.
You are whispering my name
and I soon will end this
far from alright too hard time
you need to slowly cum.
I will welcome
your first tears
your first shivers
as you shout
that all your fears
are forgotten
and at last
you are mine -
and I am yours.

Little Personal Paradise

Sometimes I like to sit in the dark
in the quiet
and just think
let my mind wander
away from life as it is
to what it can be
to cast aside responsibilities
just for a time
and ease into the place
that makes me happy
smiling inside and out
to smell the fresh air
or sip some beer
some dryfruits
rajma chawal
feeling those exotic dreams
i see
a movie or porn with popcorn
or namkeen
as it blows my worries away
leaving me
bare, exposed, unapologetic, free
in my own little personal paradise

Where ?

Where were you when I couldn’t sleep
Where were you when I couldn’t eat
Where were you when my heart died
Where were you when my eyes cried
The rain of my tears, cleansed my bleeding heart stains
The pen on the paper, delivered me from the games
Where were you through the drills
Where were you through the shakes and the chills
Where were you when I went through withdrawal
Where were you when I was curled up like a ball
The dark shielded my eyes, caused sleep
The sonnets released my pain, gave relief
Where were you, after breaking my heart?
Where were you, after tearing me apart?
Where were you? Unearthed? Found?
And what do you want from me now?

Now i always feel she will ask me this
But

Where is she when i feel all this
Where is she when i feel this wish
Where is she when my heart calls her
Where is she when my tears falls for her
Where is she when i want to love her better
Where is she when i will care for every matter
Where is she when i want to hold her closer
Where is she when i want to surrender
Where is she when i want to give commitments
Where is she when i want her passion
Where is she when i now needs compassion
Where is she ? Where is she ?

Will I ?

Will I embarrass you if I ask if I could make love to you?
I will lay you down on a bed of rose petals made just for us two

Will I cause you to blush as I remove your clothes?
I will look you in the eyes, and then kiss you on your nose

Will I cause you to close your eyes when I kiss your lips?
I will pull you real close, my hands holding your hips

Will I cause you to shiver as I kiss you from head to feet?
I will pause for a moment at intervals, to admire your beauty and greet

Will I cause you to tremble as I taste the essences of your love?
I will create a synergy between our worlds as I release and free your dove

Questions I am asking because this is what I want to do
Make love to you all day and night, with unbridled passion that is true...

Please Stay

Now you will think that what has happened to me in this very first day of the new year. Have i gone wild,dirty and insane ? So its right here that I’ve been struggling with the muses for years now, and last night I forced myself to mess with words until I had something. It’s not much, but it’s not nothing either. And this first day of this new year is what i felt the right moment to express myself so that this year i would have more dreams - hopefully with....

Fingers too twitchy
to put keys to keyboard
wanting to dig 'deep'
into your flesh
typed with impressions
bruises of grip

Body too tense
to vocalize desire
wanting to pierce
to cum into you
the totality of
my need

Word-deserted
I speak instead
with concussions
The sharp sound
of bodies
in impact

Read what I can’t write
Hear what I can’t say
And stay

Please Stay

The Endless Search

Literally love this poem which i read some tym back.  It comes under erotic poetry and i am seriously a big fan of this kind of erotic writing. Hats off to the poet's vision, thought, the depth over sex, love and eroticness in human life.

Seeing myself as some integral part
of  all that looks to love as a solution,
aching to find significance of the heart
and puzzled by its threatened dissolution.

Trying to preserve the present  wastes
our time and effort.  Change isn’t tradable,
whether  memories  of a lover’s tastes
or  his desire for you,  it’s not evadable.

In our city’s waste of streets and houses
huddling  behind our walls and fences
we miss the presence of  our hoped for spouses
cut off from love by our own  defences.

Yet there’s a need that can not be denied
as each one needs to find a mate
a lover or a mistress from outside,
to end the loneliness of staying celibate.

मेरे सवाल

कभी कभी सोचता हूँ
क्या इंसान इतना मसरूफ़ भी हो सकता है
के वो हँसना मुस्कराना तक भूल जाये
किसी अपने अज़ीज़ को याद करने के लिए भी
उसके पास वक़्त नहीं होता
क्या आज रिश्तों को भी धोया जाने लगा है ?
क्या रिश्तों की वोह गर्माहट जो मुझे महसूस होती है
उसके दिल में भी कोई ऐसी आग से तपिश होती होगी ?
कुछ पल दिल इन बातों को नहीं मानता
लेकिन
कुछ पल बाद खुद ही जवाब दे देता है
शायद यही सच है...यही ज़िन्दगी का कड़वा सच है
आज के दौर में यही मुकाम रह गया है रिश्तों का...

तेरी गुलाब की पंखुडियां...

आज तक महकती हैं
तेरे दिए गुलाब की कलियाँ
मेरे अंतरंग अंतर्मन में
खुलती हथेलियों में
जब गुलाब की पंखुडियां
अलसाई सी आंख खोलती हैं
तब मदमाती, लहराती,
मदहोश कर जाती 
महकती गुलाब की भीनी सुगंधी सी 
तू आती है
हर सांझ
बनते हैं कई किरदार मेरी कल्पनाओं में
बनते हैं, बिगड़ते हैं
रह जाती है तू
और वही
तेरी गुलाब की पंखुडियां...

उस दिन

उस रोज़
इन गुलाबों की महक यूँ न होगी
तेरी शोख हंसी की खनक यूँ न होगी
ख्वाबों से भरे दो नैनों की चमक यूँ न होगी
तितलियों सा रंग तेरा यूँ न होगा
तेरी मीठी बोली की चहक यूँ न होगी
अल्हड़ इस जवानी की छनक यूँ न होगी
उस दिन
स्याह से सफ़ेद बालों का सफ़र यहाँ होगा
चमकते चेहरे का झुर्रियों से सामना होगा
और यह तेज़ कदम कुछ सुस्त होंगे
उस दिन 
मगर उन झुर्रियों में भी यही नूर होगा
ढलती आँखों में भी इस इश्क का यही सुरूर होगा
शायद यह सपना मेरा तभी आबाद होगा
सांझ ढले मेरे हाथों में तेरा हाथ होगा
तेरा मेरा ये साथ यह अब जन्मों का साथ होगा.....
तेरा मेरा ये साथ यह अब जन्मों का साथ होगा.....

Thought

No life can be the same again
with loss of one so dear...
my heart is always yours my friend
your sadness is my tear...

Will You Come ?

while I struggle to find myself
trillions thoughts puts flowers in my mind
after months, years out of contact
a friend calls on my cell
with unspoken pain in her voice
i just listend and asked

will you come?

if you’ll come,
i’ll be resting in une roseraie,
gowned in shades of rosy petals
lying on the bed of romantic roses

if you’ll come
i’ll hear you through the mango trees
that weave the skies like timber lace
or make tasty food

if you’ll come
i call to you past funnel-clouds
the way a cuckoo boasts with chatter
and beats his happy wing

if you’ll come
i’ll drape myself across your soul
the way the river rushes stones,
until their jaggedness is smooth

if you come
i’ll sing a thousand songs, sweet
as butterflies that land on naked shoulders
on a rainy days

if you’ll come to me
i’ll know my days were half the sum,
an interlude with death, when born again
on the day you come.

मेरा घर

शाहजहानाबाद के दिल में बसा

सुकून-ओ-अमन-चैन से परे 

शोरगुल के दरमियाँ

एक दिलकश इलाके में

एक उजडती बेनूर पुरानी हवेली

दीवारों पर बारिश के बनाये नक़्शे 

इधर उधर पान की पीकों की सजावट

और मेरे माज़ी की यादें इधर उधर

काई बनकर हरी हो रही हैं रोज़

एक जानी पहचानी सी ख़ामोशी

वो अंधेरों में भी गुज़रते सायों का एहसास

गमलों के पौधों के पत्तों के बीच

चहल कदमी करते चूहे

जगह जगह फर्श पर जंगली कबूतरों की बीट की सजावट

इन सबके बीच 

छोटा सा टुकड़ा आसमान का

और उस आसमान में

पिघलते काजल सी सियाह रात का कोना पकडे 

बादलों के बीच से गुज़रता चाँद

पहले भी ऐसे ही आता था मेरे घर

बारिश के बाद की मंद गर्मी में

छज्जे पर खड़े 

मैं 

यूँ ही ख्वाब बुना करता था

दीवारों से लिपटे पीपल के

दरीचों के साए में

तुम्हे भी याद किया करता था

सर्दियों की सीप सी सर्द रातों में

नर्म दूब के बिछोने पर

अक्सर मेरा जिस्म तपा करता था

तेरे जाने से भी कुछ नहीं बदला था

तेरे आने से भी कुछ नहीं बदला है

आज फिर रात भी वही है

और चाँद भी वही आया है

और आज भी वही तपिश 

सीने में जल रही है

मैं वीरान घर के बरामदे में

खामोश खड़ा

महसूस करता हूँ

वोह तेरे आगोश की तपिश

सहर होने तक

और बस यूँ ही

बन जाते हैं यह आसमानी सितारे 

सियाह रात की कालिख में जड़े सितारे

लफ्ज़ बन उठते हैं अपने आप

लिख जाते हैं हर रात एक कविता

मेरे दिल का हाल 

यही है मेरे दिल की दास्तान 

यही है मेरे दिल की दास्तान

कोई था

कोई था कभी जो कहता था के अगर याद आये तो आधी रात को भी बेजिझक याद कर लेना | आज याद आई तो वो भी आँख चुरा कर निकल लिया | कन्नी काट ली उसने भी | हो सकता है उसकी भी कोई मजबूरी रही होगी जो अब उसे भी याद नहीं आती | शिकवा और शिकायत मुझे किसी से नहीं है, शायद इतने बुरे दिन हैं अपने के कोई अब याद करना भी नहीं चाहता | ज़िन्दगी भी न जाने क्या क्या खेल दिखाती है | कभी आकाश का कभी पाताल का नज़ारा करवाती है | कभी ऐसा वक़्त था जब चारो तरफ चहल पहल हुआ करती थी | रोनाकें हुआ करती थी | आज वीरान खालीपन है चारों तरफ | चार दीवारों के बीच ज़िन्दगी बेजान है | ऐसा लगता है जैसे मैं भी मेज़ और कुर्सी की तरह बेजान, कमरे में हूँ और उन चार दीवारी से बातें कर रहा हूँ | अकेलापन और मायूसी से ऐसा नाता जुड़ गया है | चरों ओर का सन्नाटा काट खाने को दौड़ता है | शायद बुरा वक़्त इस को कहते हैं जब कोई साथ नहीं होता | सुना था के बुरे वक़्त में साया भी साथ छोर जाता है पर मुझे इतना तो इत्मिनान है के बस एक मेरा साया ही है आज जो मेरे साथ है | यह वक़्त भी गुज़र जायेगा और मुझे उम्मीद है के एक नई किरण लेकर कभी तो आएगा | इसी उम्मीद के साथ जी रहा हूँ | उस नई सूरज की किरण का इंतज़ार है शायद कभी तो ऐसी सुबह आएगी जो अपने साथ खुशियाँ और प्यार की बरसात से मेरे आंगन को भिगो जाएगी | बस एक इसी उम्मीद के साथ ज़िन्दगी जिए जा रहा हूँ और इस अकेलेपन के अज़ाब को पिए जा रहा हूँ | अगर कहीं खुदा है तो वोह इस इल्तेजा को ज़रूर सुनेगा और मुझपर अपने स्नेह की बरसात ज़रूर करेगा | काश कभी तो वोह पुराने दिन लौट कर आयेंगे | हाँ ज़रूर आयेंगे | मेरा दिल कहता है मेरे से के तू अपने पर भरोसा रख और ज़िन्दगी को जिए जा जिए जा जिए जा |

You Taught Me

Just sitting idle and was enjoying reading some poetry. There i came across this poem full of romance and emotions. Rather than i should say some true and very rare emotions that are not found in today's world. I hope that it will make you think about your thinking about love too...

I wanted a mansion once... that is until I met you,
Now the only place I want to live is inside your heart
I once desired diamonds... until I met you,
Now the only sparkle I need comes from within
I used to crave the finest clothing... until I met you,
Now I want not a single thread to separate our bodies
I once coveted a fancy car... until I met you,
Now I want nothing that would put miles between us
I once prayed for money... until I met you,
Now I want none of the things money can buy
I once yearned for a sense of security... until I met you,
Now my only security comes is knowing you are near
I once dreamt of a prestigious job... until I met you,
Now I find my success in knowing that you are happy
I once asked for the world on a silver platter... until I met you,
Now you are my world and I want for nothing but your touch
Loving you has been my teacher; you taught me not to want
Being with you has been my discovery; you are all that I need
Finding you has been my salvation, I now understand grateful
But perhaps of most importantly...
Your love in return has been my everything

- Teresa Weimer -

अब वो नहीं है साथ मेरे

दिल धड़कता था जिसके नाम से

अब वो नहीं है साथ मेरे

सांसें चलती थी जिसके दम से 

अब वो नहीं है साथ मेरे

आँखें चमकती थी जिसके नूर से 

अब वो नहीं है साथ मेरे 

ज़िन्दगी जिंदा दिल थी जिसकी रूमानियत से

अब वो नहीं है साथ मेरे 

कुछ तो ऐसा हुआ जो 

आज कोई नहीं है साथ मेरे 

बस इस बात से डरता है दिल 

कभीं ज़िन्दगी यूँ ही खाख न हो जाये 

और कोई न हो साथ मेरे....

काश ऐसा भी तो हो

काश ऐसा भी तो हो

पूर्णिमा की रात हो

परियों की बारात हो

समंदर का साहिल हो 

और तू आए

कभी ऐसा भी तो हो

काश ऐसा भी तो हो

यह सर्द हवाएं 

जब तेरे घर से गुजरें 

तेरी खुशबु चुराएं 

और मेरे घर ले आयें 

काश ऐसा भी तो हो 

काश ऐसा भी तो हो 

सुहाना एक मंज़र हो 

दूर दूर तक वादियाँ हों 

कोई न मेरे साथ हो 

और तू आए 

काश ऐसा भी तो हो 

काश ऐसा भी तो हो

ये मेघा ऐसे गरज के बरसे 

मेरे दिल की तरह मिलने को 

तेरा दिल भी तो तरसे 

तू निकले अपने घर से

और मेरे घर तक आए

काश ऐसा भी तो हो 

काश ऐसा भी तो हो 

तन्हाई हो और तुम हम हों 

दो दिल हों और दो लब हों 

बूँदें गिरें बरसात भी हो 

और तू आए 

काश ऐसा भी तो हो 

काश ऐसा भी तो हो

मेरे घर का आँगन हो 

तेरी पायल की छम छम हो 

ठंडी हवा के झोंके सी 

तेरी मीठी बातें हों 

काश ऐसा भी तो हो 

काश ऐसा भी तो हो 

जैसा मैंने सोचा है

सपनो की इस दुनिया में 

तुझको आते देखा है

तू भी सपने बुनती हो 

और सपनो में मुझको चुनती हो 

काश ऐसा भी तो हो 

काश ऐसा भी तो हो ....

वो जज़्बात जो थे मेरे दिल के

वो जज़्बात जो थे मेरे दिल के 

न वो सुन सकी 

न मैं कह सका

शब्-ए-तन्हाई में वो याद आई

तो दिल इज़्तिराब से मचल उठा [ इज़्तिराब - restlessness]

सिर्फ चंद लम्हे मिले थे मुझे 

और मैं वो अलफ़ाज़ न कह सका 

वो जज़्बात जो थे मेरे दिल के 

न वो सुन सकी 

न मैं कह सका

ज़ख्म ज़िन्दगी ने जितने दिए 

भुला दिए चंद रोज़ में 

वो आई जब दर पर मेरे

हाल-ए-दिल को पूछने

दिन ज़िन्दगी के तब से मैंने 

नाम उसके कर दिए

वो जज़्बात जो थे मेरे दिल के 

न वो सुन सकी 

न मैं कह सका

वक़्त गुज़ारा था जो उसके साथ 

हसीन खवाब सा लगने लगा

लम्हे यूँ ही गुज़र जायेंगे

ऐसा तो सोचा न था 

एक पल ऐसा भी आया

जब उसने बिछडने की बात की

मैंने भी ख़ामोशी से 

मुस्करा के बात टाल दी 

वो जज़्बात जो थे मेरे दिल के 

न वो सुन सकी 

न मैं कह सका

पर बात उसकी सच ही थी 

कुछ ही पल में वो 

मुझसे बिछड गई 

लेकिन मेरे दिल-ए-बेचैन मैं 

अपनी सुन्दर यादें छोड़ गई 

न चाहा था कभी उसकी 

आँखों में अश्क देखूंगा 

पर उस रोज़ वोह भी 

कम्बक्त छलक ही गए 

उस रोज की ख़ामोशी

एक ख्वाब बन कर रह गई 

वो जज़्बात जो थे मेरे दिल के 

न वो सुन सकी 

न मैं कह सका

गर मालूम होता मुझे 

ज़िन्दगी ऐसी बेवफा होगी 

तू मिलकर भी जुदा होगी 

और हसरतें यूँ फनाह होंगी 

ग़म-ए-दोराह पर 

मुलाकात भी होगी कभी 

ऐसा कभी सोचा न था 

बस यही अफ़सोस है दिल में 'निर्जन' 

वो जज़्बात जो थे मेरे दिल के 

न वो सुन सकी 

न मैं कह सका

अब मेरे पास तुम आई हो तो क्या आई हो?

अब मेरे पास तुम आई हो तो क्या आई हो?
मैने माना के तुम इक पैकर-ए-रानाई हो

चमन-ए-दहर में रूह-ए-चमन आराई हो
तलत-ए-मेहर हो फ़िरदौस की बरनाई हो
बिन्त-ए-महताब हो गर्दूं से उतर आई हो
मुझसे मिलने में अब अंदेशा-ए-रुसवाई है
मैने खुद अपने किये की ये सज़ा पाई है

[ पैकर-ए-रानाई : paradigm of beauty; चमन-ए-दहर : garden of earth; रूह-ए-चमन आराई : soul of beautified garden; तलत-ए-मेहर : Prayer of Sun; फ़िरदौस की बरनाई : paradise’s youthfulness; बिन्त-ए-महताब : daughter of moon; गर्दूं : heavens; अंदेशा-ए-रुसवाई : possibility of humiliation ]

ख़ाक में आह मिलाई है जवानी मैने

शोलाज़ारों में जलाई है जवानी मैने
शहर-ए-ख़ूबां में गंवाई है जवानी मैने
ख़्वाबगाहों में गंवाई है जवानी मैने
हुस्न ने जब भी इनायत की नज़र ड़ाली है

मेरे पैमान-ए-मोहब्बत ने सिपर ड़ाली है

[ शोलाज़ारों – flaming lamentations शहर-ए-ख़ूबां – city of beauty ख़्वाबगाहों – bedrooms ]

उन दिनों मुझ पे क़यामत का जुनूं तारी था
सर पे सरशारी-ओ-इशरत का जुनूं तारी था
माहपारों से मोहब्बत का जुनूं तारी था
शहरयारों से रक़ाबत का जुनूं तारी था
एक बिस्तर-ए-मखमल-ओ-संजाब थी दुनिया मेरी

एक रंगीन-ओ-हसीं ख्वाब थी दुनिया मेरी

[ जुनूं – passion;सरशारी-ओ-इशरत : satisfaction and happiness; माहपारों: moon-faced; शहरयारों : friends of the city; रक़ाबत : animosity; एक बिस्तर-ए-मखमल-ओ-संजाब: bed of velvet and fur ]

क्या सुनोगी मेरी मजरूह जवानी की पुकार
मेरी फ़रियाद-ए-जिगरदोज़ मेरा नाला-ए-ज़ार
शिद्दत-ए-कर्ब में ड़ूबी हुई मेरी गुफ़्तार
मै के खुद अपने मज़ाक़-ए-तरब आगीं का शिकार
वो गुदाज़-ए-दिल-ए-मरहूम कहां से लाऊँ

अब मै वो जज़्बा-ए-मासूम कहां से लाऊँ

[ मजरूह : wounded;फ़रियाद-ए-जिगरदोज़- my heart’s lamentations; नाला-ए-ज़ार : song of tears; शिद्दत-ए-कर्ब : acute grief; गुफ़्तार – conversations; गुदाज़-ए-दिल-ए-मरहूम :tenderness of a heart which died ]

माँ

निदा फाज़ली साब की यह ग़ज़ल मुझे बहुत पसंद है | इसे मैं अपनी माँ के नाम समर्पित करता हूँ और निदा फाज़ली साब जैसे शायर कोई सलाम करता हूँ |

बेसन की सोंधी रोटी पर खट्टी चटनी जैसी माँ,
याद आती है चौका-बासन, चिमटा फुँकनी जैसी माँ ।
बाँस की खुर्री खाट के ऊपर हर आहट पर कान धरे,
आधी सोई आधी जागी थकी दुपहरी जैसी माँ ।
चिड़ियों के चहकार में गूँजे राधा-मोहन अली-अली,
मुर्गे की आवाज़ से खुलती, घर की कुंड़ी जैसी माँ ।
बीवी, बेटी, बहन, पड़ोसन थोड़ी-थोड़ी सी सब में,
दिन भर इक रस्सी के ऊपर चलती नटनी जैसी मां ।
बाँट के अपना चेहरा, माथा, आँखें जाने कहाँ गई,
फटे पुराने इक अलबम में चंचल लड़की जैसी माँ ।

आज एक बाज़ार लगा देखा मैंने

इस कविता के पीछे एक छोटी सी कहानी है | एक दिन जब मैं व्यायाम शाला से घर वापस लौट रहा था | अचानक मेरी नज़र एक ठेले वाले पर पड़ी | वो आम बेच रहा था | ऊँचे दाम और डंडी मार तोल | दोनों तरीकों से पैसे बटोर रहा था | फिर भी लोग मक्खी की तरह उसके ठेले पर भिनभिना रहे थे | वहीँ करीब में एक छोटा सा बच्चा फटे चिथड़ों में खड़ा बेबस और ललचाई आँखों से आमों को देख रहा था | सोच रहा था के शायद कोई उसे भी कुछ दे दे | पर कोई भी इंसान उसकी तरफ़ नज़र घुमाने तक को तयार नहीं था | उसकी उस हालत को देख और उसकी आँखों में उमड़ती भावनाओं को पढ़ मेरा मन विचलित हो उठा | मैंने आगे बढ़ कर दो आम खरीद कर उसे खाने को दे दिए | आमों को देख उसके चेहरे पर आई मुस्कान ने मेरा ह्रदय गद गद कर दिया | घर आकर मैंने इस कविता की कुछ पंक्तियाँ लिखने का प्रयत्न किया और जो प्रत्यक्ष देखा और महसूस किया वो शब्दों में पिरो दिया | आशा करता हूँ आपको मेरी यह कोशिश पसंद आएगी |

आज एक बाज़ार लगा देखा मैंने 

जम कर हो रहा था व्यापार 

बेच रहे थे बेबाक बेधड़क 

झूठ, सच, भूख, आइयाशी

साथ में थे 

दिल, जान, जिस्म और इमान

ढेर लगा था चापलूसी का 

भ्रष्टाचार पड़ा था सीना तान

भीड़ ऐसी लदी पड़ी थी 

जैसे फ्री मिल रहा हो जजमान

जिसको देखो चीख चीख कर 

कर रहा था गुणगान

इन चीजों के सौदे लेकर 

हर एक बन फिर रहा था धनवान 

आज एक बाज़ार लगा देखा मैंने 

जम के हो रहा था व्यापार 

बाजु वाले ठेले पर भी 

कुछ बेच रहा था एक इंसान 

सीधा साधा भोला भला 

शायद थे उसके भी कुछ अरमान 

प्यार, वफ़ादारी, सपने थे 

या कुछ उमीदें थी अनजान 

कुछ बेजुबान अफसाने भी थे 

और भी न जाने क्या क्या था सामान 

शराफत से आवाज़ लगा के 

कहता ले लो जी श्रीमान 

पर कोई ग्राहक ना आया 

और न बिकता उसका सामान 

लगता था इमानदार है, बेचारा 

जितना बोलता उतना तोलता 

पर कोई चवन्नी भी न देता 

अगर मिल भी जाती तो यह ज़हर खा लेता 

गला फाडेगा बस दिन भर खाली 

और खायेगा लोगों की गाली 

न बिकेगा कभी इसका सामान 

आज एक बाज़ार लगा देखा मैंने 

जम के हो रहा था व्यापार 

मैं दूर से ताड़ रहा था 

ज़िन्दगी का यह अजब तमाशा 

बेईमानी, चोरी, चालाकी, भ्रष्टाचार

घूसखोरी, झूठ, सच, भूख, आइयाशी

और इन जैसे कई और आइटम भी

बिक रहे थे जिंदाबाद

भाव रहे थे छु आसमान 

वहीँ पास में 

हो रही थी किसी की ज़िन्दगी वीरान

दम तोड़ते पड़े थे ठेले पर 

शराफत, सपने और अरमान

प्यार, मोहब्बत, ईमानदारी भी 

आखरी सासें ले रहे थे 

थे दाने दाने को मोहताज

आज एक बाज़ार लगा देखा मैंने 

जम के हो रहा था व्यापार

मेरे जीवन की एक और ऐसी शाम

मेरे जीवन की एक और ऐसी शाम 

खालीपन और साथ में, मैं हूँ 

और नहीं है हाथ में जाम

कल फ़िर से जीवन वैसा होगा 

आँख मलकर सुबह होगी 

कमरा, घर, दफ्तर का काम

टीवी, कंप्यूटर और दोस्त यार

फसबूक, याहू और पचड़े हज़ार 

रुपया, पैसा और रिश्तेदार 

जीवन है एक झंझट यार 

जीना है बहुत बड़ी ज़िम्मेदारी

क्या है मोहब्बत और कैसा प्यार 

हर लम्हा जीना दुश्वार 

हुई रात जगमग फ़िर यार 

दीखते  तारे, चंदा अम्बर पार 

रोज़ रात का वही तमाशा 

तुम फ़िर आये सपनो में यार 

सपना बन दिल पर छा जाते 

मिलने कब आओगे यार 

छु लूं  तुम को जी भर कर मैं 

कितने प्यारे हो तुम यार 

एक बार तुम आ जाओ ना

दिल करता है मिलने को यार 

मेरे जीवन की एक और ऐसी शाम

खालीपन और साथ में, मैं हूँ 

और नहीं है हाथ में जाम......

She - The Source of all inspirations in my life :)

One day i just thought of writing something for her. So just gave it a thought and scribbled something for her. Hope she will like it. I don't know if i am wrong or right but whatever i have written is just from the depth of my heart and its mixed with all those feeling that i felt after she told me the truth. I can't define her in words rather i must say that there are no more words in the dictionary that can define her and her love but just can try by saying this much that she is simply and truly lovable, admirable, angelic, charismatic, inviting, darling, appealing, presentable, flattering, delicious, dreamy, heavenly, lucious, sexy, suave, fascinating, incredible, marvelous, irresistable, prodigious, alluring, classy, delicate, attractive, alarming, graceful, beauteous, gorgeous, pretty, glamorous, devoted, seductive, emotional, skillful, provocative, smart, enchanting, delightful, homely, enjoyable, passionate, rare, subtle, soft, affectionate, respectable, tempting, stunning, astonishing, breathtaking, impressive, magnificent, mind-blowing, wonderful, lovely, pleasing, awesome, ravishing, sentimental, tasty, wondrous, tender, winning, pulchritudinous, cherishing, magnetizing, pleasant, nice, wild, sublime, lusty, worshiped, pleasing, delightful, amazing, adorable, honest, healthy, tolerable, patienceful, splendid, ideal, statuesque, wonderful, .....!!! human personality i would ever know on this earth...don't know what else to write here so ..... the words are less but not the least so that's it for now :)

She is kind
The only angel i can find
She is bold
With that 'Goddess' soul
She is hot
Like a volcanic pot
She is cold
Like those antarctic icey molds 
She is sweet
Like the choclates i eat
She is sour
Like an old wine i love to pour
She has all the salt
That makes me love her without any fault
She is pure addiction
That i can't cure
She has all the beauty
That love can hold
She has all the colors
A rainbow can show
She has all the love
That it needs to grow
She has all the notes
A song can sing
She has all the depth
An ocean can bring
The prettiest feeling
Ever on earth is loving She
The softest cushion
You feel is She
She makes life like
Starry skies with shining moon
Dipped in She's
Shining mesmerizing eyes
The warm tug
Here and there you feel
The power to do and
The power to heel
She becomes
The desire to live
She becomes
The desire to give
The most passionate
Feeling ever on earth
Is the desire to give
And the desire to love you She ?
So 'Love Me' but
With Sincerity, Devotion and Purity
Be your love stand by you and shine
Always remaining
Honest, True and Divine...

Maybe i can't speak this much when she is in front of me and stay speechless but in my scribbles can say a lot more than i can even dream of with open eyes. I can't say anything else now. This just concludes my day for today :)

कभी सोचना

ज़िन्दगी से कभी कुछ 

चाहा  क्यों नहीं 

कभी सोचना 

जो भी जिसको भी चाहा 

कभी मिला क्यों नहीं 

कभी सोचना 

ख्वाइशें और अरमान 

दफ़न हो कर क्यों रह गए 

कभी सोचना

माँगा था तुझे ज़िन्दगी में 

तू मुझे मिली क्यों नहीं 

कभी सोचना 

न चाहते हुए भी

क्यों किसी और के हो गए

कभी सोचना

मेरी आँखें रहती हैं नम 

क्यों तेरे सामने आते ही

कभी सोचना 

अपने माज़ी  की यादें

क्यों ग़मगीन करती हैं 

कभी सोचना 

सितम्ख्वार तो बहुत हैं मगर 

क्यों हुआ मुझ पर ही सितम 

कभी सोचना 

हर वक़्त लम्बा इंतज़ार है 

क्यों अब इन लम्हों में रह नहीं सकता 

कभी सोचना 

रातों को नींद में 

क्यों तेरे ख्वाबों में जी नहीं सकता 

कभी सोचना 

प्यार तो दोनों ने किया था

क्यों मुझे ही मिली सजा 

कभी सोचना

ज़िन्दगी से कभी कुछ 

चाहा क्यों नहीं 

कभी सोचना

जो भी जिसको भी चाहा

कभी मिला क्यों नहीं 

कभी सोचना

किसी से प्यार न करना तू

दिल कहता है मेरा कबसे
किसी से प्यार न करना तू
समझाऊं कैसे तुझको

तरस न जाये तू कहीं
मंजिल-ए-वफ़ा  के लिए
तू अपि आहों में भी
सिला-ए-वफ़ा न पायेगा
हर शक्स हंसेगा तुझपर
जिसे भी तू
ज़ख्म-ए-फवाद सुनाएगा
दिल कहता है मेरा कब से
किसी से प्यार न करना तू
समझाऊं कैसे तुझको

न उठेंगे
फिर तेरे हाथ
महफ़िल-ए-यार में
इज़हार-ए-इश्क के लिए
न उम्मीद-ए-वफ़ा
तलाश कर तू
इस ज़माने में
दिल नहीं पत्थर
बसते हैं
इन वीरानो में
वोह देंगे सिर्फ
सितम और जफ़ाएं तुझको
दिल कहता है मेरा कब से
किसी से प्यार न करना तू
समझाऊं कैसे तुझको

इस दुनिया में
ज़ालिम लोग बसते हैं
यहाँ मोहब्बत के लिए
सच्चे दिल तरसते हैं
आब-ए-तल्ख़ से
लबरेज़ हैं निगाहें तेरी
सितम हज़ार मिलेंगे
वफाओं को तेरी
दिल कहता है मेरा कब से
किसी से प्यार न करना तू
समझाऊं कैसे तुझको

कृपया सोचें

भ्रष्टाचार यह एक ऐसा शब्द है जिससे चाहे अनचाहे देश का हर एक व्यक्ति जुड़ा हुआ है | हर एक इंसान ने कभी न कभी जाने अंजाने इससे बढ़ने में सहयोग ही दिया है | कोई भी व्यक्ति किसी भी भ्रष्टाचारी नेता, सरकारी मुलाजिम या फिर हर वो जरिया जिससे उसका कार्य सिद्ध होता हो वह कोई भी विलम्ब किये बिना अपना पूर्ण सहयोग दे देता है | उसे इस बात से कोई सरोकार नहीं है के उसके इस आचरण से देश के भविष्य पर या देश में बढती भ्रष्टाचार की बीमारी में उन्नति होगी या हमारा देश इस दलदल में कितना और धंस जायेगा | अन्ना हजारे और बाबा राम देव जी जैसे सरीखे व्यकतित्व जब ऐसे विषयों को अपने आन्दोलनों में उठाते हैं तो वही लोग बोखला जाते हैं और उट पटांग टिप्पणियां करना शुरू कर देते हैं | उन्हें इस बात से कोई सरोकार नहीं होता के इससे देश को क्या फायदा होगा उन्हें तो सिर्फ अपने फायदे से मतलब होता है | शाहरुख़ खान, सलमान खान इत्यादि लोग भी इसी श्रेणी में आते हैं जो सिर्फ अपने फायदे के बारे में सोचते हैं | कहने को तो ऐसे लोग समाज सेवा में बढ़ चढ़ कर हिस्सा लेते हैं जिसके पीछे कारण होता है इन लोगों का निजी स्वार्थ पर जब मुद्दा होता है ऐसा जिसमें बाबाजी जैसे लोग भाग लेते हैं तब इन जैसे लोगों का असली चेहरा सामने आता है | ऐसे मौकों पर यह लोग कन्नी काट लेते हैं क्यों की इन्हें लगता है के इन्हें अपने व्यापार पर कोई असर न पड़े क्योंकि वोह भी तो पुर्णतः भ्रष्टाचार से भरा हुआ है | अपने काम निकलवाने के लिए यह लोग कितनो को रिश्वत देते हैं और भी न जाने क्या क्या प्रलोभन दे कर यह अपने टेड़े काम सिद्ध करवाते हैं | इन जैसे लोगों को सिर्फ अपनी और अपने परिवार के भविष्य की चिंता होती है न की देश की नौजवान पीढ़ी की | अपनी जेब भरने से फुर्सत मिले तो यह लोग ऐसे क्रन्तिकारी आन्दोलनों में सहयोग दें | मैं अपने तन मन और धन से पुर्णतः बाबाजी के आन्दोलन में उनके साथ हूँ और अपने मित्र नवीन द्वारा लिखी गईं इन पंक्तियों का पुरजोर समर्थन करता हूँ. | मेरी आजके और आने वाली नई नौजवान पीढ़ी से गुज़ारिश करता हूँ के वो इस आन्दोलन में बाबाजी का सहयोग कर इस आन्दोलन को सफल बनाने में अपना योगदान दें | जय भारत | वन्दे मातरम | भ्रष्टाचार मुर्दाबाद | भ्रष्टाचारी सहयोगी मुर्दाबाद |

अश्क

कल मुलाक़ात हुई मेरी

उसके अश्कों से 

जो तरस रहे थे

निकलने को उसकी आँखों से

रोना चाहती थी वो

लिपट कर मुझ से 

बहकते दिल में

उम्मीदों के अरमान लिए 

डबडबाई आँखों से

कहना चाहती थी वो

इस दर्द और टीस को 

कैसे सहती हूँ मैं 

वोह जिसे 

आइना कहते हो तुम 

अपने दिल के उस मक़ाम में 

रखती हूँ तुम्हे 

आँखों से बात कर के 

फिर कांपते लबों से 

धीरे से बुदबुदा के 

कुछ कहना चाहती थी मुझसे 

खेलना चाहती थी वोह 

छोटी सी बच्ची बनकर 

उड़ना चाहती थी वोह 

ज़मीन में चल कर 

रहना चाहती थी वोह 

आँचल के साए तले

बहना चाहती थी वोह 

जहाँ इश्क का दरिया बह चले 

कहना चाहती थी के 

इज़हार तो करो 

तुम खामोश न रहो 

मुझसे इकरार तो करो 

तुम लबों से कुछ न भी बोलो 

पर दिल से प्यार तो करो 

उसकी नज़रों की गहराई 

में जब भी झाँका 

अनकहे सवालातों की आंधी पाई 

पूछती हो जैसे 

मुझसे हरपाल 

क्या याद करोगे मुझको ?

जब पास न होंगे हम 

ख्यालों में ही सही 

न जाने मैं क्या क्या कह देता हूँ 

पर तू जब भी सामने होती है तो मैं 

सब कुछ कहते हुए भी 

बेज़ुबान ही रहता हूँ 

कल मुलाक़ात हुई मेरी

उसके अश्कों से ....

Old Classic Television Serials

I am doing some research on old time classic serials from dordarshan and other channels of 80's & 90's period. If anyone else remember any more then please add to this list. If you do have more details regarding these serials post them here pls will update in the list.

Alice In Wonderland -
[ children - title track lyrics: gulzar ]

Aamne Samne -
[ celebrity chat show ]

Aadha Sach Aadha Jhooth -
[ drama - producer: rajesh khanna -  music: pancham ]

Aakhri Dao -
[ drama - cast: deepti naval, farooq sheikh ]

Adalat -
[ crime - a serial on court cases ]

Aa Bail Mujhe Maar -
[ comedy - cast: anu kapoor, amol palekar, harish patel, ajit vachhani ]

Ados Pados -
[ comedy - cast: vinnie paranjape, amol palekar - producer & director - sai paranjape ]

Air Hostess -
[ drama - kittu gidwani - director: vinod pande ]

Aisa Bhi Hota Hai -
[ reality - anchor: monika laal ]

Apradhi Kaun -
[ detective ]

A Face In The Crowd -
[ talk show ]

Ajooba -
[ comedy - host: shammi kapoor ]

Alif Laila - [ ]

Ali Baba Chalis Chor - [ ]

Bible Ki Kahaniyan -
[ children - serial based on christian scriptures of the bible in hindi - cast: kabir bedi, shammi kapoor, raza murad, urmila matondkar, arvind mehra, asha sharma, daman maan, soham, varun vardhan, rajesh kapoor, mohan gokhale, mita vashisht, rita bhaduri, kawaljeet, janak toprani, satish kapoor, leela panicker, radha seth, raja bundela, kamal jithu, lalit tiwari (narrator) - director: prof. george menachery - music: louis banks, vanraj bhatia - lyrics: kafi azmi - 1993-1995 ]

Basanti -
[drama - based on the life of a slum girl ]

Basera -
[ comedy - cast: mehmood, channa ruparel - plot: story about tenants ]

Baigan Raja -
[ children ]

Buniyaad -
[ drama - cast: alok nath - director: ramesh sippy ]

Bharat Ek Khoj - [ historical - cast: om puri - director: shyam benegal ]

Bahadur Shah Zafar - [drama/history - cast: ashok kumar, juhi chawla, raj babbar - producer & director - b.r. chopra & ravi chopra]

Banate Bigadte - [ ]

Bibi Natiyonwali - [ ]

Barrister Vinod - [ detective ]

Byomkesh Bakshi - [ detective - cast: rajat kapoor ]

Babaji Ka Bioscope -
[ children - series of short stories used to come on sunday mornings ]

Barbapa - [ cartoon ]

Bante Bigadte -
[ comedy - cast: paresh rawal, reeta bhaduri, rakesh chaudhary, ajit vachchani ]

Captain Vyom -
[ youth / children / si-fi - cast: milind soman, netra raghuraman, divya palat, tom alter - 1990's ]

Chanakya - [ historical - cast: pramod moutho, suraj chaddha, ragini shah, ajay dubey, arun bali, himanshu gokani, mitesh safari, dr. chandra prakash dwivedi, dinesh shakul - producer & director: dr. dwivedi - 1991 ]

Chamatkari Telephone -
[ children / animation - chamatkari telephone ( literal meaning: "magical telephone") was an Indian animated television series that aired on dordarshan national channel in early 90s. - title track: sally, meg & jonathan, muskano ka baatein dhan..pyar bhara unka telephone...chamatkari telephone...']

Chunauti -
[ youth - cast: suchitra krishnamurthy, rajiv verma, ajit vachhani, mohan bhandari, bharat kapoor, arif zakaria, sunil puri, channa ruparel, raju shreshta, rita bahaduri, archana joglekar, ali asgar - music: sapan jagmohan - director: sanjiv bhattacharya - producer: rakesh chowdhary - title track: man ek seepi hai, asha moti hai har pal jeevan ka ek chunauti hai - singer: amit kumar - 1980's]

Campus -
[ youth - chunauti part 2 - cast: ninad kamath, paritosh painter ]

Chaya Geet -
[ musical - filmi songs program ]

Chitrahaar -
[ musical - old new filmi songs on wednesday and frinday ]

Charitraheen -
[ drama - based on bengali novel ]

Chunni - [ ]

Circus -
[ drama - cast: shahrukh khan, renuka shahane, pawan malhotra ]

Choti Badi Baatein -
[ comedy - cast: ashok saraf, sulabha arya, arvind deshpande, babloo mukherjee]

Chitz -
[ suspense - cast: mazar khan, kiron kher, liliput, sayed jaffery, kanwaljeet, ratna pathak, sushmita mukherjee - title track: mumkin hai safar ho aasan - singer: suresh wadkar ]

Chauraha -
[ children - educational ]

Craft Show -
[ children - afternoon show where they teach to make craft items. i still remember the use of words like "chipkanewala padarth". ]

Charlie Chaplin -
[ children - english comedy serial ]

Chandrakanta -
[ drama - cast: ]

Daane Anar Ke -
[ comedy - the show focuses on a middle-class family that has just won a lottery, and chronicles how the behavior of their neighbors and relatives changes in response to their new-found wealth. the show also interviews the family to evaluate their reactions to these changes and finally how do they cope with the changes. - cast: shailendra yadav, neena gupta, ajit vachhani - music: vishal - lyrics: gulzar - title track: kissa hai kahani hai paheli hai, zindagi ye moosa ki saheli hai - writer: sharad joshi - lyrics - gulzar - music - vishal - 1980's]

Deewar -
[ drama - the show is based on the story of a guy named purshottam, who is in jail. he has been in prison for the last ten years. it is said that although his term is a lifer and that means a minimum of fourteen years, there is a possibility of him being released within the next six months. purshottam is in prison due to his conviction for the crime of murder - cast: kulbhushan kharbanda, amita nangia, smita jaykar, anju mahendru, mukesh khanna, avtaar gill, alok nath, sulbha arya, mamik , anita kulkarni sushil parashar, asawari joshi, vaquar sheikh, resham seth, sanjay batra, anita kulkarni, rakesh bedi - director: raman kumar - music: jagjit singh - 1990's ]

Dhamal -
[ comedy - cast: satish shah - after ye jo hai zindagi this was starred by satish shah on sunday mornings ]

Dil Dariya -
[ drama - cast: shahrukh khan - plot: story about pre and post partition ]

Doosra Kewal -
[ drama - cast: shahrukh khan ]

Dada Dadi Ki Kahaniyan -
[ children - used to come on sunday evenings. short stories for kids. - cast: leela mausi aka leela mishra ]

Didi's Comedy Show -
[ children - english comedy show ]

Danger Bay - [ ]

Dekh Bhai Dekh - [ comedy - cast: shekhar suman, naveen nishchol, fareeda jalaal, bhavna, deven bhojani, liliput - director: anand mahendroo - producer: sarasvati audio & video (jaya bachchan) - title track: ss rang badalti dunia me kya tera hai kya mera hai...dekh bhai dekh...]

Different Strokes -
[ comedy - english comedy serial used to come on sunday ]

Dastan-E-Hatim Tai - [ ]

Duck Tales -
[ children - animation serial on sunday mornings ]

Dadi Ma Jaagi - [ ]

Ehsaas ( kahani ek ghar ki ) -
[ drama - the family saga is the story of protagonist parvati and her two sisters whose father has died in a mysterious accident after being cheated by his business partner. the three sisters are now on a mission to destroy the man they think is responsible for their father’s death. amidst the drama of hate and vendetta, there is a love triangle when parvati and one of her sisters discover they love the same man. -  cast: arun govil, bhairavi raichura, tarana singh, sameer iqbal patel, kiran kumar, avtaar gill, mohan bhandari, navneet nishan, amita nangia - director: raman kumar - title track: jagjit singh & chitra singh ]

Ek Kahani -
[ literature / stories - anchor & director: manju singh - debute serial of pallavi joshi ]

Ek Do Teen Char -
[ children - title track: ek do teen char...chaaro mil ke saath chale to karde chamatkar ]

Ek Kahani -
[ sotries - director: gulzar ]

Ek Tara Bole -
[ children ]

Ek Dil Hazaar Afsaane -
[ drama - serial about short stories ]

Ek Chidiya Anek Chidiya -
[ children - animated cartoon]

Ek Aana Ka Daana -
[ children - animated cartoon of krishna and pandavas]

Faster Feren -
[ children ]

Fauji -
[ youth - it was a series following the training of an indian army commando regiment that aired on India's national channel DD National in 1988. - cast: shahrukh khan, sanjay taneja, rakesh sharma, amina s.kapoor, manjula avtar, vikram chopra, gautam bharadwaj, a. kannan, sonal dabral, nikhil dewan - producer & director: colonel kapoor ]

Flop Show -
[ comedy - cast: jaspal bhatti, vivek shauq, savita bhatti, rajesh jolly, b.n. sharma, kuldeep sharma - creator, writer, producer & director: jaspal bhatti - 1989 ]

Farmaan -
[ drama - cast: kanwaljit singh, raja bundela ]

Fatichar -
[ comedy - cast: pankaj kapur ]

Fikr Ne Kaha Tha -
[ comedy - cast: tiku talsania - another morning show with tiku talsaniya ]

Giant Robot -
[children - japanese dubbed cartoon]

Gul Gulshan Gulfam -
[ drama - cast: pareekshit sahani, pankaj berry - producer: cinevista ]

Guchchhe -
[ children ]

Gijoe -
[ children - animation ]

Gayab Aaya -
[ children - animation serial ]

Honee Anhonee -
[ supernatural powers / past life]

Hum Panchi Ek Daal Ke -
[ comedy / social ]

History Of Man -
[ children - cartoon]

Hum Log -
[ drama - hum log is the story of an Indian middle class family and their daily struggles and aspirations - cast: ashok kumar, vinod nagpal, jayshri arora, rajesh puri, abhinav chaturvedi, seema bhargava, divya seth, loveleen mishra, lahiri singh, sushma seth, kamia malhotra, aasif sheikh, manoj pahwa - writer - manohar shyam joshi - producer: doordarshan - director: p kumar vasudev - title track: aaiye haath uthaayein hum bhi.. hum bhi - music: anil biswas - 1984 ]

History Of Man -
[children / cartoon ]

He Man & Masters of Universe -
[ children / cartoon ]

Himalaya Darshan -
[ drama / stories - serial based on short stories from places close to himalay like himachal pradesh etc. ]

Hello Zindagi -
[ current affairs - anchor: nalini singh - title music & singer: jagjeet singh - title track: hai lau zindagi, zindagi noor hai
magar isme jalne ka dastoor hai ]

Indradhanush -
[ children / si-fi - a mixture of sci-fiction and fantasy & an excellent copy of back to the future movie - plot: the story of group of kids, who assemble a computer. on that computer they meet a prince from another galaxy. then the events take a lot of weird turns, one of the kids (the lead character) gets kidnapped by someone from another galaxy. the prince gives the kids a device that makes time-travel possible. with this device they try to see their past and rescue their friend. - cast: karan johar (as Apu), akshay anand, shinde rajendra, jitendra rajpal - producer & director: anand mahendra - 1988-1989 ]

Intezaar -
[ drama - the message of this serial was a mother waiting for her seperated son.This serial was exclusively shot on railway platform. - cast: rajendra gupta, sangeeta naik, pawan malhotra ]

Idhar Udhar -
[ comedy - cast: deena pathak, supriya, ratna shah, ravi vasvaani - director: anand mahendroo ]

Isi Bahane -
[ drama/comedy - cast: mazhar khan, supriya pathak, ratna pathak, sushmita mukherjee, liliput, anand mahendroo - director: anand mahendroo ]

Itsi Baat - [ ]

Inspector Vijay -
[ detective ]

India's Struggle For Freedom -
[ informative - struggle about indian independence ]

Jantar Mantar -
[ drama - cast: vikram gokhale]

Jungle Book - [ children - ]

Junoon -
[ drama/crime - cast: kittu gidwani, tom alter - producer: adhikari brothers ]

Jamai Raja -
[ comedy - cast: r madhavan, tiku talsania - director:  anant mahadevan ]

Jai Veer Hanuman - [ ]

Jamie And The Magic Torch -
[ children - animation ]

Kahan Gaye Woh Log -
[ drama / patriotic - a serial full of patriotism is said to have started the 'golden era' of patriotic tv serials. the serial received overwhelming response since the beginning. this serial was awarded 'aadhaarshila (foundation) award' for best patriotic serial which was given by of then vice president of india mr. shankar dayal sharma. manoj kumar also played a major role in the success of this serial. - cast: dheeraj kumar, sachin kumar, rajendra gupta - director: dheeraj kumar - producer: creative eye limited - 1980s]

Kahkashan -
[ drama - Kahkashan is an Indian television series about six great masters of modern Urdu poetry: Hasrat Mohani, Jigar Moradabadi, Josh Malihabadi, Majaz Lucknawi, Firaq Gorakhpuri, and Makhdoom Mohiuddin. - producer, research & script -  ali sardar jafri - director - jalal agha 1991- music & title - jagjit singh - 1991-1992 ]

Kashish -
[drama - cast: mallvika tiwari, sudesh beri ]

Kashmakash -
[ drama - cast: suchitra krishnamurthy, javed jaffery, ali khan ]

Kaachi Dhoop -
[ drama - which was based on the classic little women ]

Khel Khel Mein - [ ]

Khazana -
[ children - series based on best seller short stories ]

Khilti Kaliyan -
[ dd program about adult education ]

Karamchand -
[ detective - cast: pankaj kapoor, sushmita mukherji, deepak qazir - director: pankaj parashar - music: either kersy lord/lesley lewis ]

Kakkaji Kahin -
[ comedy/satire - cast: om puri, shail chatuervedi, basu chatterjee ]

Kab Tak Pukaroon -
[ literature -  plot: based on a novel written by Dr. Rangeya raghav - cast: pankaj kapoor, pallavi joshi, sushmita mukherji - director: sudheer mishra ]

Katha Sagar -
[ literature - producer: cinevista ]

Khandaan -
[ drama - this serial started the trend of mega family serials - cast: jayant kripalani, neena gupta, mohan bhandari - director: sreedhar kshirsagr ]

Khoja Naseruddin -
[ literature - cast: raghuvir yadav - director: aman allana ] 

Kabeer -
[ literature - cast: anu kapoor, anil chaudhary ]

Khali Haath -
[ drama - cast: madan jain ]

Kirdaar -
[ drama - cast: om puri - director: gulzar ]

Kshitij Yeh Nahi - [ ]

Kab Tak Pukaroon -
[ literature - cast: pankaj kapoor - director: sudheer mishra]

Kachhi Dhoop -
[ drams - cast: bhagyashree ]

Katha Sagar - [ short stories ]

Karandikar Uncle -
[ cookery show - it used to be aired in afternoon show. an old man "karandikar uncle" used to go hunting for recipes to different houses in a colony. ]

Kharee Kharee -
[ comedy - cast: anu kapoor as a servant ]

Kadwa Sach -
[ social issues show ]

Krishi Darshan -
[ agriculture based show ]

Kirdaar -
[ cast: om puri - director: gulzar ]

Lifeline / Jeevan rekha -
[ drama - cast: a.k.hangal ]

Laurel & Hardy -
[ children - english comedy serial]

Lohit Kinare -
[ drama - had title score from famous assamese singer bhupen hazarika ]

Lena Dena -
[ drama - used to come on sundays ]

Laddoo Singh Taxi Wala - [ ]

Mahabharat -
[ drama / epic mythology - cast: gajendra chouhan, arjun, praveen kumar, sameer, sanjeev, nitish bharadwaj, razak khan, paintal, arun bakshi, mayur, puneet issar, vinod kapoor, pankaj dheer, pradeep rawat, dharmesh tiwari, mukesh khanna, surendra pal, kapil kumar, nazneen, virendra razdan, lalit tiwari, girja shankar, renuka israni, roopa ganguly, channa ruparel, kiran juneja, rishabh shukla, sumeet raghavan, dara singh, debashree roy, vishnu sharma, goga kapoor, ram mohan, rafique mukkadam, raj babbar, ashalata, shivendra mahal, rana jung bahadur, sharat saxena, sudesh berry - narrator: harish bhimani - creators: baldev raj chopra (b.r. films) ]

Mungerilal Ke Haseen Sapne -
[ comedy - this serial was loosely conceptualized on james thurber's novel the secret life of walter mitty - plot: mungerilal is a small time clerk who gets bossed around by his wife at home and by his boss at office. to top that, mungerilal's father in law rubs salt on mungerilal wounds by exaggerating his own achievements as a police inspector. mungerilal overcomes all this by day dreaming, where he takes revenge on his boss, his father-in-law. mungerilal also dates his beautiful colleague. as he basks in the glory of his accomplishments, his wife wakes him up to ruin dream. - cast: raghubir yadav - director: prakash jha - writer: manohar shyam joshi - 1989-1990 ]

Mr. Yogi -
[ comedy/satire - cast: mohan gokhle ( yogesh ishwarlal patel aka y.i. patel ) - anchor: om puri - (satire on weddings) ]

Mirza Ghalib ( my fav.) -
[ drama - based on the life of legendary poet/shayar mirza assadullah khan ghalib - cast: naseeruddin shah - music & singers: jagjit singh & chitra singh - producer & director: gulzar - 1988 ]

Malgudi Days -
[ children / stories - based on the works of r.k. narayan - cast: anant nag, dada, girish karnad, vishnuvardhan, shankar nag, ramesh bhat, master manjunath aka swami - producer: t. s. narasimhan - director: shankar nag - music: l. vaidyanathan - cartoon sketches: r.k.laxman ]

Mujrim Hazir Ho - 
[ drama -  ]

Mamaji -
[ comedy - cast: deven varma - plot: story about tenants ]

Mrgnayni -
[ drama - based on a novel written by Mr. Vrindavanlal Varma - cast: pallavi joshi, mohan bhandari ]

Mitti Ke Rang -
[ drama - based on short stories written by mr. mohan rakesh ]

Manoranjan -
[ serial about shooting and productions ]

Marshal -
[ detective - cast: mukesh khanna ]

Mile Sur Mera Tumhara - [ musical ]

My Little Pony -
[ children - cartoon on sundays ]

Mister Mrs. -
[ comedy - cast: archana puran singh ]

Meri Awaz Suno - [ ]

Nirmala -
[ drama - written by legandary munshi premchand (original name dhanpat rai) - cast: preeti khare ]

Nukkad -
[ drama - cast: suresh chatwal, dilip dhawan, avtar gill, sameer khakhar, haidar ali, javed khan, pavan malhotra, sangeeta naik, rama vij, ajay wadhavkar, tambi, suresh bhagwat, kundu mochi - writer: prabodh joshi - director: saeed akhtar mirza & kundan shah - 1986-1988 ]

Noopur - [ ]

Neem Ka Ped -
[ drama - series of short stories ]

Neev -
[ youth - serial about these kids living in a hostel ]

Nai Dishayen - [ ]

Neki Kar Kuan Mein Daal - [ ]

Oshin - [ ]

Om Namah Shivay -
[ drama / epic mythology - the series is presumably named after the mantra aum namah shivaya. it "depicts the spirituality, divinity and the moving power with which lord shiva governs the destiny of the universe." - cast: samar jai singh, yashodhan rana, gayatri shastri, manjeet kullar, amit pachori, sandeep mehta, sunil nagar, sanjay swaraj sharma, gajendra chauhan, rajeshwari sachdev, nimai bali - music: shaarang dev - director: dheeraj kumar - producer: zuby kochhar - production company: creative eye - 1997 ]

Phir Wahi Taalash - [ drama/romance - story about a village boy who comes to city for pursuing some professional degree and falls in love with the daughter of flat owner. - cast: dr. ashwini kumar, poonam malhotra, neelima azim (shahid kapoor's mother), s.m. zaheer, rajesh khattar - director: lekh tandon - title singer: chandan dass - music: anil biswas]

Pachpan Khambe Lal Deewarein -
[ drama - cast: meeta vashisht, aman verma ]

Phool Khile Hain Gulshan Gulshan - [ ]

Parivartan -
[ drama - cast: bina (pradeep kumar's daughter) as the matriach of a rich family ]

Potli Baba Ki -
[ children - series of short stories on sunday morning ]

Palash Ke Phool -
[ drama - title track: jab jab mere ghar aana tum phool palash ke le aana tum ]

Pc1008 - [ ]

Paramvir Chakra - [ ]

Pirot - [ children ]

Police Files Se -
[ detective ]

Paying Guest -
[ comedy - used to come on sunday afternoon ]

Phulvanti - [ ]

Quile Ka Rahasiya -
[ mystery - director: seema kapoor ]

Quiz Time -
[ children/quiz - anchor: siddartha basu ( tan ki shakti man ki shakti bournvita) ]

Ramayan -
[ drama / epic mythology - cast: deepika chiklia, arun govil, sunil lahiri, dara singh - creators: sagar arts limited - producer & director: ramanand sagar - 1988]

Rangoli -
[ musical - old new songs on sunday morning ]

Rajini -
[ comedy/women rights - cast: priya tendulkar ]

Raja Aur Rancho - [ detective ]

Rath Chakra - [ ]

Rani Lakshmi Bai - [ ]

Shanti -
[ drama - the story begins with two friends of the biggest bollywood production house in the country. two friends - kamesh mahadevan and raj g.j. singh writer, directors and producers live in the lavish shanti mansion. behind the walls of shanti mansion lie dark secrets of the past lives of both the friends. - cast: mandira bedi, amit behl, anoop soni, yatin karyekar, jyotsna karyekar, ravi aidasani, sumukhi pendsey, irawati harshe, amar talwar, anita kanwal, amit kapadia, sonali kulkarni, salim fatehi, ashwini kalsekar, sunil shende, rajesh jais, naina apte, prithvi jutshi, spriya karnik - director: adi pocha - production company: utv software communications - 1994 ]

Shriman Shrimati -
[ comedy - cast: jatin kanakia, reema lagoo, rakesh bedi, archana puran singh - director: rajan waghdhare - producer: gautam adhikari & markand adhikari - 1989 ]

Singhasaan Battisi -
[ children - use to be aired in sunday evenings on doordarshan. folk tales of a singhasan with 32 idols. every idol tells a story to the raja. - 1980s ]

Stone Boy -
[ drama - shot in mauritius, the story was based on a fantasy story of a poor farmer/milkman boy who gets cursed by fairies. - cast: master manjunath, neha contractor, ankur javeri, parikshit ambatkar, rajesh chand, dinesh chand - director: t.s. nagabharana - 1991 ]

Superhit Muqabla -
[ music - the top 10 songs were decided every week by the polls sent in by the viewers. - presenters: baba sehgal, ekta kapoor ]

Suraag - The Clue -
[ detective - cast: sudesh berry - creators: shri adhikari brothers - producer: gautam adhikari ]

Swabhimaan -
[ drama - swaabhimaan divulges the story of an attractive woman - svetlana who finds herself in a battle where there are no real winners. insecurity, suspicion and fear threaten to erode her vivacious spirit as she struggles to come to terms with her position - that of a pampered mistress whose tycoon patron keshav malhotra played by naasir abdulah dies leaving her to cope with the ugly aftermath of the tragedy - inheritance wars, succession rights, property entanglements, petty quarrels and above all, emotional turmoil that threatens to destroy her. - cast: kitu gidwani, abhimanyu raj singh, nasir abdullah, anju mahendru, deepak parashar, kunika, rohit roy, channa ruparel, sheetal thakkar, manoj bajpai, rinku karmarkar, karan oberoi, achint kaur, anupam bhattacharya, ashutosh rana, sandhya mridul, arun bali, harsh chhaya, simone singh, mita vashisht, sagarika soni, rajesh khera, pankaj berry, poonam das gupta, kumud mishra, rajiv paul, kiran juneja, prabha sinha - producer: amit khanna - writers: shoba de & vinod rangnath - director: mahesh bhatt - 1995-1997 ]

Sanjha Chulha -
[drama - cast: rama vij, pankaj berry ]

Shrikant -
[ drama - cast: farooq sheikh - plot: based on a bengali novel ]

Space City Sigma -
[ children / si-fi ]

Sukanya -
[ drama - cast: natasha Sinha, harish bhimani ]

Swavlamban -
[ program about wow to be self independent in life ]

Spiderman -
[ children - animation cartoon ]

Subah -
[ social issues - cast: salim gouse, prem - music: r.d.burman ]

Surabhi -
[ cultural magazine - anchors: renuka shahne, siddhart kak ]

Sunil Gavaskar Presents -
[ sunil gavaskar presents a program on cricket ]

Shri Krishna - [ ]

Sauda - [ ]

Star Trek -
[ children - english serial dubbed in hindi ]

Swimmi -
[ children - animated dubbed cartoon of small fishes scaring a big fish ]

Street Hawk -
[ detective - english serial dubbed in hindi by the dd metro ]

Sherlock Holmes - [ children ]

Saanp Seedhi -
[ game show - anchor: mohan kapoor - when zeetv was launched mohan kapur in snakes and ladder weired quiz game show. those who give wrong answers would end up in a pool of water ]

Show Theme - [ ]

Sangeet Ka Safar - [ ]

Sangharsh - [ ]

Sansar - [ ]

Sea Hawks - [ ]

Turning Point -
[ children/science/educational - anchors: girish karnad, naseerudin shah ]

The Disney Show -
[ children / cartoon ]

The World This Week -
[ news - anchor: prannoy roy ]

The Sword of Tipu Sultan -
[ drama/history - based on a novel by bhagwan gidwani, this serial was a portrayal of the life and times of tipu sultan, the erstwhile ruler of srirangapatna - cast: sanjay khan, maya alag, deepika chikhalia, anant mahadevan, mukesh rishi, shahbaz khan - producer: numero uno international - director: sanjay khan & akbar khan - 1989-1990 ]

Tehkikaat -
[ detective - thriller series about various crime scene investigations - cast: vijay anand (dev anand brother), saurabh shukla - producer: karan razdan - 1994-1995 ]

Trishna -
[ drama - adaptation of jane austen's pride and prejudice ]

Telematch -
[ used as a filler I think this was probably in 80's ]

Tamas -
[ drama - based on a novel written by bhishm sahani (brother of actor Balraj Sahani) - cast: om puri, deepa sahi ]

Tenalirama -
[ children - a very well made serial about the witty genius - title track: balle balle balle tenali rama ]

Thoda Sa Aasmaan - [ ]

Tasveer Ka Doosra Rukh -
[ comedy - cast: seema barman - it was story about two characterts who go place to place to get the reviews and feedabcks for televison serials. it was a comedy serial portraiting the funny situation they find themselves in. ]

Titliyan -
[ drama - some kind of kitty party plot ]

Target - [ detective - english serial ]

Tu Tu Main Main - [ ]

Tana Bana - [ ]

Tootne Ke Baad - [ ]

Talespin -
[ children - animation serial on sunday mornings]

Ulta Pulta -
[ comedy/satire - cast: jaspal bhatti]

Udaan -
[ drama - it was a story of a girl named kalyani singh who joined the police force and with her hard work and sheer determination - cast: kavita chaudhary, vikram gokhle, shekhar kapur, uttara baokar - 1989-1991]

Vikram Aur Betaal -
[ children / mythology / fantasy - contained stories from Indian mythology that aim at teaching kids lessons of life while entertaining them. The concept of the program was based on Baital Pachisi, a collection of tales about the semi-legendary King Vikramaditya and the Vetala, a huge vampire-like being. based on adventures of king of ujjayaini, vikramaditya and a ghost betal. - cast: arun govil, sajjan kumar, arvind trivedi, deepika chikhalia, vijay arora - producer: ramanand sagar - 1980s ]

Waqt Ki Raftaar -
[ drama - cast: sriprada - producer: adhikari brothers]

Wagle Ki Duniya -
[ comedy - The serial was an adaptation of R K Laxman's "Common Man" cartoon series representing the quintessential common man, in the national newspaper The Times of India. - cast: anjan srivastav, bharti achrekar - producer: durga khote productions - music: vanraj bhatia ]

World Of Sports -
[ sports - anchor: anupam gulati ]

Wah Jaanab -
[ comedy - cast: shekhar suman ]

Yeh Jo Hai Zindagi -
[ comedy - this was the first hit comedy serial. this serial gave fame to so many actors. the episodes revolved around funny happenings in the lives of ranjit verma and renu verma, who play a married couple along with renu's unmarried and unemployed younger brother raja. other characters were ranjit's boss, his bengali neighbours - cast: shafi inamdar, swaroop sampat, rakesh bedi, tiku talsania, satish shah, farida jalal, javed khan, sulbha arya, vijay kashyap - 1984 ]

Yatra -
[ travel & tour - this entire serial was based on the journey on indian railways . i think the message was how railways contribute to the national integration - anchor: om puri - traverses the length of the country from jammu to kanyakumari. ]

Zaban Sambhal Ke - [ ]

क्या जवाब दूं तेरे सवाल का ?

क्या जवाब दूं तेरे सवाल का

मैं तो खुद ही सवाल बन गया 

हर वक़्त पूछता खुद से हूँ 

क्या मैं वोह रहा ? जो मैं था भला 

क्या जवाब दूं तेरे सवाल का ?

तेरी नज़रों में रहा वही सदा

एक दोस्त, दिलबर या एक हमनवा 

मेरी नजरों में, मैं हूँ क्या भला ?

यह तो मुझ कोई भी अब नहीं पता 

क्या जवाब दूं तेरे सवाल का ?

तेरी इनायतों का शुक्रिया

जो इंसान मुझको  समझ लिया 

क्यों मुझ से दिल लगाके यूं

ज़िन्दगी जलाये है तू 

क्या जवाब दूं तेरे सवाल का ?

भूल गया

तेरे वादे, तेरे जज़्बात 

तेरी यादें, तेरी बातें 

तेरे शिक़वे, तेरी शिकायतें 

सब कुछ लौटना भूल गया 

मैंने जाने की जल्दी में 

मिलकर जाना भूल गया

बिखरा तनहा बढ़ रहा था 

मैंने बर्बादी के रस्ते पर 

सूनी आँखों से टाक रही वोह 

बेबस मुझको मुड मुड कर 

उससे कहना था इतना कुछ 

पर कुछ भी कहना भूल गया 

दर्द तेरे दिल में भी उतना

जितना मेरे दिल में था

पर हंसती आँखों से मैंने 

अश्कों को पीना सीख लिया 

वक़्त-ए-रुक्सत पूछ रहा था 

मेरी आँखें आँचल से 

मेरा ग़म था इतना ज्यादा 

मैं खुद ही रोना भूल गया

काश तुम आते तो !

तुम आते तो, हवाओं में एक नशा होता 

तुम आते तो, घटाओं का सा समां होता

तुम आते तो , आसमान भी बदगुमां होता

तुम आते तो, ज़मीन पर भी गुलिस्तां होता 

तुम आते तो, मंज़र ख़ुशनुमा होता 

काश तुम आते तो !

तुम आते तो, दीवाने हम हो जाते

तुम आते तो, मुस्कराते और खो जाते 

तुम आते तो, दर्द-ओ-ग़म भूल जाते 

तुम आते तो, प्यास क्या है बताता

तुम आते तो, हाल-ए-दिल कह जाते 

काश तुम आते तो !

तुम आते तो, एक उम्मीद भी आती 

तुम आते तो, ज़िन्दगी खुशियों से भर जाती 

तुम आते तो, हर पल रौनकें छा जातीं 

तुम आते तो, नई राहें खुल जातीं 

तुम आते तो, नए ख्वाब बुन जाते

काश तुम आते तो !

तुम आते तो, मैं और भी बहुत कुछ कह पाता

तुम आते तो, सपनो को हकीक़त कर पाता 

तुम आते तो, कुछ और नई शरारतें कर पाता 

तुम आते तो, खुद से ही बेख़बर हो जाता 

तुम आते तो, ज़िन्दगी चंद लम्हों में जी जाता

काश तुम आते तो !

Old School Friends Re-Union

I am all set off to write a review on my recently held old school friends re-union which we have planned with a real passionate heart but have really gone 'Phusssss' like a soda bubble at the end when we finally met because of last moment ditchers ;) . So here came another nostalgic moment of my life today in this burning afternoon of May. Just came back after meeting with my old school friends. The list of frnds was long who all had voted to come. But by the time it was finalized only few could actually made it including myself. Besides me there was Saurabh Gupta, Mohit Johri, Shivani Gogia who made it to the venue. Niti got sick and she had to cancle at the last moment. Gunjan never confirmed. Shubhra had some relatives visiting her place. And the never ending excuses from non-makers goes on. Our meeting point was Connaught Place. I reached their by Metro and Saurabh picked me up at 'D' block. Shivani was already sitting with him in the car. They were already enjoying each other's company until i popped on the backseat of the car. She was looking as stunning as ever, as she used to look in school even after all these long years she haven't changed much but put on a slight weight. I said 'Hi' to her. Saurabh and I have already met before in a few previous re-unions. We all shaked hands and then joke cracking session started followed by a series of leg pulling sessions that Shivani had to bear. She was in regular contact with Mohit on sms so that we can catch him as well. At last 'Raja Babu' arrived at Odean Cinema in his sedan wearing shades. He waved at me, after that we planned to move to QBA, a nice retro bar joint. There we sat in AC leaving that skin roasting temperature outside. We ordered 'Chilli Paneer', 'Paneer Tikka', 'Fresh Lime Sodas' and 'Chilled Beer'.  Until the order got served, the series of talks started that really made me nostalgic about my good old school days. We talked about most of our old school buddies, crushes that we use to have in school, affairs, FLAME games that we use to play, how we use to get scolded by teachers and the nicks of most of our favourite teachers and shared the glorious achievements and mischefs we did in life with each other. The atmosphere was really overwhelming and the smell of historical thoughts & pranks was everywhere at that moment. Overall it was really an enjoyable session. We spent around 3.5 hours together and then parted for our own places after hugging and greeting each other. Yes, i can say it was one of the memorable days of my life. I hope many more days like this will come in future. Hoping for a next reunion soon. Guys, confirm the venue for next meetup asap. This time do confirm positively. No last moment ditchers required. Rate this review frnds....Cheers and Good Luck!

गुज़रा हुआ ज़माना

आता है याद मुझको 

फ़क़त गुज़रा हुआ ज़माना

वोह जाफ़रानी खुशबू से 

दिलों का महक जाना 
असर के आसमान पर 
परिंदों का चेह्चहाना 
[ फ़क़त - merely; ]

फुर्सत-ए-क़ार  से बेख़बर
अंदाज़-ए-शाही था मैं परवाना 
अपनी ख़ुशी से हँसना 
अपनी ख़ुशी से गुनगुनाना 
[ फुर्सत-ए-क़ार - work; अंदाज़-ए-शाही - royal attitude; ]


जब लगा था ज़ख्म दिल पर 
याद अगया वो दीवाना 
मेरे अश्क-ए-दिल घावों पर 
गुलिस्तान का मुस्कराना 
[ अश्क-ए-दिल - heartless; ]

वोह वजाहत-ए-हुस्न से सूरत 
वोह संगेमरमर सी खूबसूरत
आबाद उसकी रौनाकों से था
मेरे जुनू-ए-आशिकाना 
[ वजाहत - dignity, respect, and beauty; ]

आता है याद मुझको 

फ़क़त गुज़रा हुआ ज़माना

जिंदगी

ज़िन्दगी भी है खफ़ा

और लोग हैं बेरहम 

अब हो गया यकीन मुझे 

न बुरा हूँ मैं न तुम 

किस को मेरे हाल से 

निस्बत हो क्यों भला 

आँखें भी दुश्मनों की 

हर पल ही ज़ुल्म करें 

मेरे सिवा तेरे 

न होने का ग़म किसे ?

तेरी तलाश में तो बस 

मैं ही हूँ क्या कहूँ 

कुछ आज शाम ही से 

दिल भी है बुझा बुझा 

वोह ज़िन्दगी की आग भी 

है मध्यम ज़रा ज़रा 

इस सेहरा-ए-आरज़ू से मैं 

बहार निकल चलूँ 

मेरे दिल की रौनकों में

कोई दम भी न बचा 

सब कुछ सही है 'निर्जन'

मगर इतना ज़रूर है 

दुनिया में बहुत कम है 

अपने लोग 

यहाँ वहाँ...

(निस्बत - रिश्ते, relation ; सेहरा- रगिस्तान, desert; आरज़ू - ख्वाइश, desire )